episode 12: u pink my heart

ada sape2 tunggu episode u pink my heart tak???? lalalalala perasan lak saya ni kan lariksssssss, ok buat sape2 yang tertinggal episode 1 sampai 11, klik2 la kat side bar sebelah yer --->

ecehhhh...

sbnrnyakan, byk nau part2 yang saya teringat2 yang terlupa nak cerita tau, yelah diari saya lg satu ilang sudah... cissss... takpelah kan, mcm tak biasa jer, nanti kalau kita igt, kita wat la flash2 back gitu kan,, mcm tak biasa kannnnnn lalalalalala

ok2, sambung kepada episode lepas, "lepas abis cuti, saya kembali ke sintok dengan satu kenangan yang sangat manis, dengan satu keputusan yang saya yakin, dengan satu pilihan" kan, saya balik ke sintok naik bas, saya balik bersama2 ngan "kawan" saya lah... yelah, masa tu kan nama pun "kawan" kan, opssss saya taknak la cerita pasal saya ngan "kawan" saya ni lelebih, kenangan manis ke pahit ke kan, yelah , pertama saya kene jaga hati en.laloque kan, kedua "kawan" saya tu pun dah kawen, dah bahagia ngan wife dia, kang kalau wife dia baca ke dia baca ke, mana lah tahu kan, bimbang akan mengguriskan hati kan, jd harus saya menjaga element2 tersebut kan kan kan, jadi saya cuma akan ceritakan pasal perasaan saya, diri saya dan en.laloque saje...

so cerita dalam bas, habis, sampai dengan selamat di sintok...

saya ada terima satu email dari en.laloque, semangat kan saya gi cc semata2 nak baca email dari en.laloque... walaupun email fwd2 ntah hape... tp saya baca mcm nak menangis plak terharunya tau... nak tahu tak emelnya...

Right Now....
somebody is very proud of you.
somebody is thinking of you.
somebody is caring about you.
somebody misses you.
somebody wants to talk to you.
somebody wants to be with you.
somebody hopes you aren't in trouble.
somebody is thankful for the support you have provided.
somebody wants to hold your hand.
somebody hopes everything turns out all right.
somebody wants you to be happy.
somebody wants you to find him/her.
somebody is celebrating your successes.
somebody wants to give you a gift.
somebody thinks that you ARE a gift.
somebody hopes you're not too cold, or too hot
somebody wants to hug you.
somebody loves you.
somebody admires your strength.
somebody is thinking of you and smiling.
somebody wants to be your shoulder to cry on.
somebody wants to go out with you and have a lot of fun.
somebody thinks the world of you.
somebody wants to protect you.
somebody would do anything for you.
somebody wants to be forgiven.
somebody is grateful for your forgiveness.
somebody wants to laugh with you.
somebody remembers you and wishes that you were there.
somebody is praising God for you.
somebody needs to know that your love is unconditional.
somebody values your advice.
somebody wants to tell you how much they care.
somebody wants to share their dreams with you.
somebody wants to hold you in their arms.
somebody wants YOU to hold them in your arms.
somebody treasures your spirit.
somebody wishes they could STOP time because of you.
somebody praises God for your friendship and love.
somebody can't wait to see you.
somebody loves you for who you are.
somebody loves the way you make them feel.
somebody wants to be with you.
somebody wants you to know they are there for you.
somebody's glad that you're his/her friend.
somebody wants to be your friend.
somebody stayed up all night thinking about you.
somebody is alive because of you.
somebody is wishing that you noticed him/her.
somebody wants to get to know you better.
somebody wants to be near you.
somebody misses your advice/guidance.
somebody has faith in you.
somebody trusts you.
somebody needs you to send them this letter
somebody needs your support.
somebody needs you to have faith in them.
somebody will cry when they read this.
somebody needs you to let them be your friend.
somebody hears a song that reminds them of you. ~ shamsul

sampai sekarang saya simpan emel tu, tp saya rasa en.laloque pun mesti dah lupa dan tak igt langsung atau tak pernah igt dia penah bg emel ni dulu kan hiihihihih... tp ayat2 tu sweettttttt kannnn...

saya igt lagi, saya siap print, bagi jijah baca, pastu saya ckp, "touchingggg kan emel ni" dengan muka paling excited, sekali jijah jawab... "biasa jer" muahahahahahah cisss betul hahahaha... langsung tak menjiwai perasaanku yang jiwang karat dikala itu tauuuu... hahahaha

ok bab lain...

oh yer... malam tahun baru, 31 december 2000, mcm biasa saya bergayut dengan en.laloque

masa ni hubungan dengan "kawan" saya sgt dah retak, masa ni saya dah tak tentu arah, hilang pedoman pun yer saya rasa hihihihih...

ok2 sambung balik, saya bergayut ngan en.laloque, saya tahu masa ni en.laloque pun dah tangkap cintan ngan saya, saya ofcoz laaaa... dah gila bayang muhahahahaha... en.laloque tanya soalan cepu kat saya

"sebenarnya kita ni mcm mana?"

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh... pucat terus muka saya, kalau masa ni saya jamin, uols toreh2 la tangan saya, konfem tak kuar darah muhhahahahaha... seb baik dalam tipun jer, kalau face to face... konfem saya dah beku kat situ

hati saya menjerit nak cakap "abg laloqueee... kita sayanggggggggggg abang laloque, kita nak abang laloque, kita rindu abang laloque"... sekadar imaginasi sahaja, tapi mulut saya tak dapat nak mengeluarkan kata2 itu... giler kemaruk saya masa tu hahahahaha...

saya masih diam tanpa kata2, kalau uols jadi saya, uols nak kata apa???? uols masih ber"kawan" tp uols dah cintaaaa sama lelaki lain, terasa tidak mahu kehilangan dia????

serba salah kan!

terperangkap kan!

dalam dilema kan!

cuba uols letakkan diri uols dalam diri saya, apa sepatutnya yang saya buat??? adakah perasaan sayang ini SALAH?

bersambung...

wahhhhhhhhhhhh... uols kalu boleh komen la, kalau uols berada di situasi saya masa tu yer, sajer la nak tahu, kalau uols, apa jawapan uols... :p

Mama Alesha dan An-nisa Abriza